enemies
Enemies
“Thou preparist a table before me
In the presence of mine enemies”
This the foundation of the faith that I seek
God hear me, protect me, deliver me, please
Did You truly make me?
Am I really Your child?
In Your green pastures
May I stay a while?
Restore my soul?
Is that really Your goal?
With waters still
My cup You’ll fill?
To feel held in a hostile world
To just know that I’ll be all right
To believe in abundance when absence is hurled
Is like asking blind me, “Go. Enjoy the sights!”
Shall I fear no evil in the valley of death?
Shall my soul be anointed with oil?
Shall I ever find the calm in my gut?
Insides that reside in eternal turmoil
Feeling You are still there
- When life is a bear
When all is not fair -
That’s what I want, I swear
My enemies are strong, you see
Cunning and baffling and real
And Lord, forgive me, but even you might agree
That your presence, sometimes, is hard to feel
It’s the wolf inside me with whom I plead
Yet he pounces despite my cries that he cease
It’s the hole inside whose seductive seed
Grows strong and will not my spirit release
Self-loathing and lies – my defects
How can I feed calmly amongst such foes?
Anger, judgment, envy, pride
How let in Your high amongst such lows?
How connect, and not detach?
How accept, and not resent?
How let Your love vanquish my fear?
How not feel shame as I repent?
The straight and righteous path, I know,
Is not without danger. To life, that’s a taunt!
But the comfort of Your staff and rod
Will reassure me you’re there – a caring God
See, 6/23 was my 9/11
My forgotten boy’s cry, “Am I part of your heaven?”
So this 23rd Psalm, it resonates
Of the need to feel welcome at Your pearly gates
I pray Your goodness and mercy
Shall follow me
That all my days from fierce wanting
Shall be free
And that to the scared son,
Whispered clear as a bell,
You, wise Shepherd, will say,
“Forever in My house,
YOU are welcome to dwell!”contact me
Introduction to "Enemies"
